Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Please don't give up! Don't ever give up!


I saw a woman today at the gym. I was finishing up my cardio warm-up on the elliptical and she was finishing up a session with a personal trainer. Her face was flushed, she was dripping with sweat, she was heavy, and she was ready to give up. I could see it in her eyes. She'd lost hope, and the only reason she was in that gym at that moment was because she'd paid that trainer. It was clear. As I watched her, she looked away from the trainer, across the room, and for just a moment her eyes locked with mine. She looked at me, up and down, then this expression I can only label as "disgusted" crossed her face, and she turned back to the trainer, finished her last set and with her shoulders drooping, walked away.


I wanted to chase her down! I wanted to beg her to not judge me, or judge herself by me. I wanted to tell her I used to be fat! Fatter than her, actually, and that YES, the journey is hard, but it's so very worth it! Please don't give up! Don't think about how far you have to go, just take this next step, then the next. You'll get there! Please, don't give up.

While part of me really resented the "look" she gave me, I remember being guilty of handing those out myself. I have been maintaining my weight loss for 2 1/2 years, during that time, I've continued to sculpt my body and build muscle. I bitch about hard workouts, and lack of treats, but I am thriving. I do not, have not, will never forget what it was like to be fat. I will never go back. And sometimes I have a nearly irresistible urge to chase someone down in the gym and explain that. But I don't.  At least I haven't yet. It wouldn't be appropriate. So I will use this space here to say it... Don't Give Up! Please, Don't Give Up! You Are Worth This Journey!

6 comments:

  1. All I can say to that is ... AMEN!
    I don't think I've ever given a skinny girl a disgusted look. Though I've received my fair share for being fat. I hope that I don't ever forget where I came from when I'm on the other side of the scale.

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  2. Hi Charity! I really like the way you said that, the other side of the scale.
    Thanks :-)

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  3. Thanks for posting that today! Perfect timing and just what I needed to hear. I am starting week 8 today and it is very hard today! I am hungry and really wanting some chocolate!! So I won't cave in!!!! Thanks for the encouragement!

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  4. Just found your blog Chelle! I've just started to follow you, but thank you so MUCH!! for sharing your knowledge. I am really struggling, but you give me hope that I can get 'there'. I find there is nothing worse than ones own family making rude comments about ones large size. I will persevere.

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    1. Hey there! You're not alone. Persevere - you're worth it!!

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