I promised I'd be transparent with you throughout this journey, so in the spirit of that...
Lol. I'm flagging. My energy levels are nowhere near stable - one moment I'm fine, the very next I'm crashed. It's insane. My hubby says to me last night, after watching one of these quick-changes, "I'm sorry the diet sucks so much. You've only got 8 weeks left, right?" I had to correct him. This isn't the sucky part of the diet. This is the transition part of the diet that prepares you for the sucky part of the diet. I start the sucky part in a week. I'd love to just not think about what's ahead, but you know me... I have to prepare, and I have to have creative tasty food / recipes ready to go when I hit that stage, otherwise I'll lose my mind. My calories will be cut. In theory, this would take me from 6 meals down to 5, in addition to the carb cutting. In reality, I'm going to do everything I can to save my bedtime protein ice cream, lol. I will tweak and cut from everywhere except breakfast and my ice cream. As long as it's in my power to do so, anyway. Hahaha. I'll follow the plan, but if I can tweak it and make it my own - then I can follow the plan and retain a little of my sanity.
Tomorrow marks 7 weeks. I absolutely cannot believe how it's flying by. I want to catch hold and slow it down a bit - I want to savor the experience a little more, but instead I feel I'm rushing from one responsibility into another. Today, for instance. You already know how crazy my morning was. At work, I got stuff done, ate, then headed out at lunchtime to hit Walmart for a few things. You see, I can't do my usual food prep on Sunday this week, as we have a party to attend; all my shopping/prepping has to be done Saturday - Saturday which also includes class & cardio. Add my usual chores like laundry and so on. Plus, I'm supposed to be spending quality Vitamin D time in the backyard to prep for my show-tan. That hasn't been happening. I feel behind and rushed.
Anyway, so I picked up Swai at Walmart (way cheaper there!), some tea, and a few odds and ends, came back to the office and ate lunch while updating a few more tasks. In my head I have all these things running around... stuff I have to do, buy, find, accomplish, AND my coach told me today that I'm not getting enough sleep, and have to make it happen. She's absolutely right, and I will make it happen, but I found myself in tears wondering how the hell I was going to get everything done if I have to go to bed at 9pm... no, be ASLEEP by 9pm. Yes, it was a My-Carbs-Are-Reduced-And-This-Is-The-End-Of-The-World moment. While the tears passed, the stress didn't.
Then, through some horrible circumstances (not mine), I have the rest of the afternoon off... soon as I finish this, I'm out of the office. And guess what? I froze! Panicked! What do I do with this extra time??? Do I do laundry? Grocery shop? Cardio early (planned for 5:30)? Recipe test? Work on the downloadable recipe book? Food prep? What do I do????
Yes, folks... I am losing my mind. How ridiculous is this? So, what I'm doing is a couple small tasks here in the office, then I'll hit the grocery store, then home to unload. I will then go do my cardio. After, I will shower, have dinner, try to work on the recipe book, and finish planning for the new diet. Then I will have ice-cream and go to sleep.
At least, that's the plan.