Tuesday, May 26, 2015

The Twist in the Trail...

I know, I know. I haven't posted in WAY too long. I'm sorry. I promised, when I began this blog (way back on the original website in 2008!) to share my journey with you, transparently, and I've fallen down on that in recent months. While I'm not at liberty to share everything that's been going on, I will give you as much info as I can.

Over the last few years, my husband's mother has battled cancer. Successfully, thankfully, but it's been a scary journey. Early this year, his sister also had a devastating cancer diagnosis. She has been successful in the fight. A couple months ago, my husband found a lump, too. Because of the family history, he immediately sought medical attention. Something he might not have done, otherwise.

Over the last weeks, we've been in and out of the doctor's office, he's been poked, prodded, and scanned until he was ready to beat the next tech who came near him, lol. We finally got a surgery date for removal & biopsy, and were assured that this was no big deal. 10 minute surgery, though they'd have to put him under general anesthesia due to the location of the mass. Off to the hospital we went, and away they whisked him. I sat in the waiting room. And sat. And sat. 10 minute surgery took more than 4 times that. Which is a lifetime, by the way, when you're expecting 10 minutes.

He's fine, let me lead with that. He's fine. The mass was benign. However, they found a few things when they got inside and the testing continues. The incision that was supposed to be tiny is much larger, and his recovery is ongoing. What should have been a 24 hour recovery has turned into weeks. Being a man, this does not sit well with him.

And so, we continue to run tests and await results. And I continue to browbeat him into resting and taking his meds. Lol. That's my job, right? We've faced it all with our trademark sarcasm, and a lot of hugs. And I cook. A lot. ;-) Boy have I got a lot of recipes to share with you guys when I get my schedule more stable!!

So that's one aspect of what's been happening. The other isn't my story to tell, but I can share that due to a series of events, two of my kids have been tested and discovered to have genetic mutations (yes, we're calling them x-men now, lol). While we continue to pursue information for one, and hope that we've caught it in time to prevent future tragedy,  the other has completed her testing and is facing a challenge that I would take from her if I could. I so wish I could.

For months, her situation has been fraught with heartbreak, repeated disappointments, confusing tests, crushing diagnosis', and now, finally, we see a light at the end of the tunnel. We are pursuing that light with everything we've got. Over the next months, I will be spending a significant amount of time helping to take care of her, while she undergoes a process that we hope will provide the resolution she so very much wants.

As a woman - a wife and a mom, my heart and all my energies have been directed toward my family through this time. I handle life fairly flexibly. I've learned to roll and bend when necessary, to fight when required, but most of all, to realize that life happens and no amount of anguish, worry or fear on my part can change it. I live my life in a state of joy - and I've worked hard to do that. That joy has been challenged this year, but not defeated.

We will face these twists in the trail. We will continue to hold tight to each other and BELIEVE for the future.

I hope you'll be patient with me, as I walk this new path of life. I will continue with my blog, recipes, and work, but my focus is first for my family.

Oh - and I could really use an assistant, lol! If anyone has some free time on their hands and wants to help out with the newsletter, PLEASE let me know!! :-)

So... to answer some questions I've been repeatedly asked recently...

Will you compete this year? NO. Lol. Not happening. I have, however been pursuing (when scheduling allows) test judging, which will eventually allow me to become a competition judge. Will I compete in the future? Undecided. It's just not on my radar right now. Show prep is all-consuming, and I've no room for that in my life in the foreseeable future.

Are you working out?? Sort of. I have Coach Kayla three times a week (2 Pilates, 1 weights), but as the schedule becomes more and more erratic, that's having to flex, a lot. Other than meeting with her, I am not in the gym. And I am unapologetic. Given the choice between an hour and a half there, or that same time with my husband and/or kids, my family wins every time. Life is short and there are no guarantees.

Are you eating clean? Have you gained weight?  Mostly, and no. Being in maintenance mode (meaning not in show prep, lol), my food is clean, healthy, and tasty - because that's my lifestyle. But because of all the scheduling challenges, there are some "non-clean" choices happening. I'm not going to stress over it. At all. I focus on high protein, healthy fats, and nourishing carbs. I drink my water, and some wine ;-)  I fuel my body as best I can, and I don't worry about the rest. And no, I have not gained weight. I'm in the same jeans I wore post-show. They fit a bit differently, lol, but my weight is right where it should be. I'm a little soft, but with my high protein diet, I've maintained more muscle mass than I anticipated - I'm good with that.

Are you still taking Custom Clients? No. I am committed to the ones I have now, and will continue to work with them, but that aspect of my business is being phased out. I will be expanding my Evaluation Services, along with the Downloadable Meal Plans, and the Recipes. I have further plans for expansion and FUN things to come, too. :-)

If there's a question I haven't answered, just ask :-)

Thanks for sharing the journey with me. You are just awesome!!!! :-)

3 comments:

  1. Chelle,
    Sending many hugs and prayers you way to you and your family!!!!! Hang tight and keep rolling with the punches!

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  2. So sorry to hear about al these stressful events. I'm glad to see that you have your priorities straight! Hang in there - I'm pulling for you!

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  3. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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