Thursday, May 5, 2011

Hitting the Wall, and other whines...

I. Hit. The. Wall. I am exhausted. It hurts to walk. illustration of hip flexorsMy hip flexors scream with every step. After Abs class yesterday, in which they seized up at the end and I had to stop, I realized that in 3 days I'd hit my abs hard 4 times. Not being one to stop and actually think for a moment, I moved on to my cardio... 20 minutes of HIIT on the stair-master followed by 10 more minutes of steady-state. By the time I was done, I was wasted. I had to shower at the gym before I could put in an appearance at the bowling alley. As I chatted with Tab while we each gathered our stuff in the locker room, I had to drop to the bench and sit. I was DONE.

She warned me about too much, too soon on this Figure Competition journey... but... I'm doing what I'm supposed to - I'm on track with the workouts, the cardio, the food... ?? If I shouldn't be on track, where should I be?

I headed to the alley, where the guys bowling went late... didn't get home until almost 9:30. I really should have made a shake, but honestly didn't have the energy to shake the shake! All I wanted to do was go crawl into bed, but I drug myself to the kitchen and put together the  guys' lunches, sipped some decaf coffee, then crashed. Hard. Overslept this morning and debated rushing to make it to yoga for about 30 seconds then laid back down. The only give in my schedule is Thursday morning yoga, and this morning it gave. I just couldn't do it. I slept until 6, then began my day. Exhausted. Hurting. My hip-flexors are viciously sore. I made my way back to the kitchen to pack my cooler and discovered that Bill had forgotten to take the lunches. I very nearly sank to the floor and cried.

How ridiculous is that?

Worse... I've been beating myself up all morning over skipping yoga. I have photos and measurements tomorrow, and I'm wigging over missing a yoga session. Like one session is going to make up for anything I did or didn't do in the last four weeks. Stupid.

I'll be really glad when school is out and Tab and I can put our heads together over my path. I'm feeling lost. I have a plan, but the plan keeps changing, and I know it's because we haven't been able to really sit down and give it 100% focus. I started prep early - way early - and I know that factors in, but I have more work to do than the women I'll be competing against. I'm rambling. Ugh. I'm tired. My allergies have me completely stuffy, and my asthma is acting up. Had another attack during the night (wth?). Out of nowhere.

Gonna quit whining now. Moving on...

1 comment:

  1. Hang in there Chelle! You are such an inspiration to me, I can't wait to read how things are going each day. If it's any consolation, my allergies and asthma are giving me hell these days too...must be the weather.