Thursday, July 21, 2011

Sanity Returns...

Ok, today I am sane again. Or at least, as sane as I get :-)  haha, for now. Yesterday was baaaaaad. At lunchtime I ran out to Sports Authority to get new workout shoes (my arches have been brutal). Tab had informed me I needed them... then gave me a deadline because she knows me, lol. It was a miserable experience. Between being exhausted and hungry and carb deprived and NO customer service, I ended up in tears and walking out empty handed. After work, I went to the gym for Abs class and cardio. Tab informed me that instead of doing posing afterwards, we were heading out to find me shoes.  So after a killer 15 minute abs session, I hit the evil, wicked, hateful bike for 40 minutes of steady-state. I promised myself I only had to do 10 minutes then I could switch to another machine. Then it was 11 minutes, and I promised myself I only had to get to 20, then I could switch, then it was, "really? c'mon.. you've gotten this far, suck it up princess and get it done!".  So I did. One big sweaty stanky mess later, I cleaned up and off we went to the shoe store.

Tab went up and down the aisles pulling shoes and laying them out for me. She found inserts (which are way nicer than my previous ones - and about $40 cheaper!), she sat me down, she got the shoes ready for me to try them on (this is a true friend, people), then she made me compare shoe to shoe the ones I liked. At the end, she made me put one of my shoes back on and walk to compare... I think maybe she guessed that I didn't really think I needed new shoes... Boy did that change my mind! I couldn't believe how worn out mine were! CRAZY worn out!  So worn out, that when I saw them this morning as I was getting ready, I actually got nauseas at the thought of ever putting them on again!

Nike Zoom Structure Triax+ 14 Breathe shoeSo what'd I get? LOL, you're gonna love this... the same shoe as before! The Nike Structure +14 Breathe. It's basically the new version of my old one (which was the new version of the old one before that). These just really feel good on my feet and provide the support I need. And evidently I can make them last almost forever, lol.

Tab and I had a long talk about how I was feeling, and what's coming. One of my problems is that I'm trying to do too much. I'm trying to keep up with my schedule as if I weren't competing. I beat myself up because I've already had to break my Sunday Food Prep into two days, simply because I don't have the energy/stamina to stand for as long as it takes. 

As we went over what my commitments and responsibilities are, she said, "Something has to give, and I'd prefer it wasn't you." That made me laugh AND cry. I feel like everything that needs to be done, only I can do. Bill's out of town, the girls are off doing their things, and no one else is around to do my mid-week Swai baking, no one else can mix up my protein shakes or my ice cream mixes, or start a load of laundry, or feed the dog, or go to the store, or return the videos, or whatever, because I'm the only one available. Tomorrow and Saturday promise to be insane if I don't get some help. Honestly, I don't know if I can do it. Something's got to give. And if it's me, I'll break. Tab's right. (as usual).

Feeling really low and run down, though happy about my new kicks, lol, I headed home. Walked in the front door to find 10 - count them TEN teenagers in my living room. Only two were mine. You've got to be kidding me. I went straight to the kitchen, got my dinner, ate while I prepped my ice-cream, settled the dog, then went upstairs, closed the door and fell on the bed. Was that the end of my day? Of course not. 2am brought teen drama. 2:00 - 2:30 am. When I am due up at 5. Lovely. 

Thank the gods for coffee.

With yesterday fully behind me, I put on my new shoes and headed to the studio for Leg Day. And made it through a whole workout without crying! Then I hit the gym for my cardio - and survived (lol) my 30 minutes of intervals on the Stair-Monster. I dashed back home to pack my cooler and get ready, then headed to Tempe for a seminar (for work). I ate my breakfast en-route, and can I just say that I am a freaking genius in the kitchen? LOL! Can you tell I'm feeling better than yesterday?  I had 2 of my Banana-Doodles for breakfast and they were incredible! They've been sitting in a tupperware in the fridge since Sunday, and the kids didn't know they were there (mwahahaha). They were so amazingly good - moist & banana-y, plus the frosting was awesome... WINNER! LOL! If you haven't tried them, please do and let me know what you think   :-)

After work today, I'm headed back to the gym for Cardio round-2 (40 minutes of steady-state). I've still got to figure out tomorrow & saturday - how to make it all happen.  Oy.

Here's the rest of my food info - remember to click on the cooler photo to view all my food pics & nutrition data...

Clean Eating Cooler - Chelle's food for today - Figure Competition Diet
Breakfast -  2 of my Protein Banana-Doodles (omg, they were sooooo good!!!)
Snack: Protein shake/pudding
Lunch - 3 oz chicken breast with 1 cup
steamed zucchini  
Snack -  3 oz chicken breast, 7  raw almonds
Dinner -  6 oz baked Swai and 1 cup
steamed asparagus.
Pre-bed Snack -
Protein Ice Cream.

Today's Numbers (click on the picture above to view all the info & meal pictures):
1364 calories
49% protein
20% carb
30% fat
23.6 g fiber

So, while I'd love to leave you with something profound, LOL, I'm stuck with my reality... I'll share with you my song for this week...   No Way But the Hard Way by Airbourne.

"There ain't no way but the hard way, so get used to it."


  1. Hey Chelle,

    That is some real life going on. Teenagers do equal lack of sleep in my house too! But I'm super glad that you got some new shoes, because if your feet were in unhappy, that would be bad!
    Hang on!

  2. i think that Tab is one smart cookie... listen to her... you need to take a good look at all you are doing and trying to do and cut back all but the essential and top priorities.... the cook book can wait... the vidoes can be returned late... etc... start axing things just for a few weeks and for goodness sake ask for help! you have how many adults living there... put them to work girl! surely they know how to chop a vegtable and boil the eggs yah?
    good luck Chelle and glad to hear today was a better day for you... you are doing amazing... hang in there..

  3. oh hey in my "enthusiam" to see you get some help there i didn't mean to minimize the amount of work your counter of chaos is, i can only imagine how much time and work goes into it...just that you may be able to enlist some help with it...
    sleep well and here's hoping tomorrow is even better than today was for you

  4. OMG Chelle, I can't imagine how you must feel with everything you 'have to do' = ) Something that might help to keep going...think of all of us who are reading your blog and find it SO inspiring!

    Keep up the great work! Its almost over!

  5. You have for more wherewithall than I do. I admire your fortitude in achieving this goal!

    One question for you - I don't have coconut flour for Banana Doodles. Can I sub some other flour? Oat flour maybe? I NEED a bedtime sweet treat and these look good. (Too good maybe, my hubby was reading over my shoulder making yummy if I'm going to share. RIGHT.)

  6. Thanks! I've really been fighting the dark side, and contrary to popular myth, there are no cookies, lol. I've got one more cardio today, then the rest of the day and tomorrow is rest... well, rest and laundry, and grocery shopping, food prep.... hoping for some serious down time tomorrow.
    Mrs Rum... yep, you can sub oat flour just remember that it's denser than coconut flour, so they'll be more "scone" like, rather than cakey. But I love to use oat flour, too. It's a great sub for coconut.
    My hubby just came home from a business trip and wanted to know if there were any banana-doodles left, LOL! Um.... no.

  7. Bad hubbies! Do not come between a woman and her tasty treat!!! Haha! Thanks so much!