Thursday, March 14, 2013

In Memory of Nakki

Many of you know that our family pet, Nakki, has been battling cancer. On Tuesday, her fight ended. While not wanting to subject her to full chemo (less than 50% survival rate), we did opt to try a different type of chemo, pills she was given once every three weeks. She did wonderfully on that therapy, even went into full remission. Then the day before Bill and I left for Ohio, we noticed her lymph nodes were swollen again. When we returned a few days later, she wasn't doing well. Not eating, not playing. We communicated regularly with her doctor, then I took her in for an appointment Tuesday at noon. Over the course of the previous 24 hours, she had gone from bad to worse. It was so fast. And so hard to watch.

I met with the vet, and we agreed that it was time. I took Nakki home, and Bill and the kids all gathered to visit with her for the last time. At 4pm, Bill, Shiloh and I took Nakki back to the vet's office, where they were ready for us. They were wonderful. We sat with her, held her as she passed. Leaving that office, leaving Nakki lying there, was one of the hardest things I've ever done.

We spent Tuesday night celebrating Nakki - sharing stories and looking at photos. We are all grieving. Nakki was a member of our family. Because we're a his and hers blended family, Bill and I always joked that the "ours" child was Nakki. Working from home since November, she's been part of nearly every moment of my day. It's really difficult - I look for her, listen for her, then remember she's gone. Bill came home yesterday from work and it was the first time in nearly 7 years she didn't meet him at the door, butt wagging. Shiloh and Bethany both say the house is too quiet. They're right.

Needless to say, my usual routines are shot right now. My cooler lies empty, I missed the gym Tuesday and Wednesday, and just to rub salt in the wound, woke up sick this morning - I've got chest congestion so once again, no gym. Hopefully tomorrow I can get in and at least lift, if not do cardio. I will get back on track. I'll be consistent again, but for now it's just doing what comes next. We're dog people, so we will have another pet, but with half the kids already moved out and on, and one more getting married this fall, leaving just one more who's fast-tracking graduation - we'll never have another family pet. Losing Nakki represents the end of an era for our family. She's missed. She was well-loved, and we have many wonderful memories of her. We cherish every moment we had and are grateful that she didn't suffer needlessly.


  1. Reading this made me tear up...losing a pet who was, for all intents and purposes, your child is awful. We just lost one at the end of January, so I know your pain. Hugs to you and your family XOXO Becky

  2. I'm so sorry Chelle. I know how hard it is to lose one of your furry babies. ~hugs~

  3. I am so sorry for your loss. I know the loss of a furbaby is hard to take and difficult to get over. The pictures are wonderful.
    Take care,

  4. I am so sorry for your loss. Pets are like children, I have a dog myself and just can't imagine when that day comes. Bless your heart for celebrating your dogs life and for sharing it with us. I love the photos. They say alot.

  5. I'm so sorry, Chelle. Pets are definitely family members, and their loss is traumatic. The pictures you posted are beautiful and I hope the memories of her time with you will help comfort you. Sending you hugs, Kari

  6. I'm so sorry too :( Our girl is 13 yeare old and nothing will ever prepare you for it. We have another on the way...we'll get it April 21st. Nothing will ever replace Boomer but we can't imagine coming home to an empty house either.


  7. Thank you, so much! Everyone's support, understanding, and compassion are a blessing to us. We appreciate you! Thank you.

  8. Oh, Chelle, with tears streaming down my cheeks, my heart breaks for your family. It so unfair that our furbabies have such short lives. What an amazing life your sweet Nakki had with an amazing family to fill her days full of love. She will always live in your heart and your memories.

    Sending you lots of love and peace. *hug*